Bipolar Butterfly

Hi my name is Jenni and  I live with bipolar. I was diagnosed at age 14. I am now in my thirties. It has taken me 14 years to finally admit my problem. I was ashamed of it as a teen and was in denial till age 28. I thought some how I had control over it. I thought I could wish it away and act normal. It took getting married and having the one person I trusted enough to tell me the truth. I had a problem and I was not normal. In a way it was a relief.

I sought help. I went to a doctor. I was put on an antidepresant medication. It didn't help but I thought it would. I settled for the first med they gave me. Big no no. As time went by and I sought support online I learned that its okay to suggest another med and to be honest with your symptoms. I finally feel satisfied with my doctor and the meds she is giving me. I still have major mood swings and lately it has been depression.

Its hard to get up in the morning. I want to sleep all day. I feel guilty for feeling this way. Its a downward spiral. Since I did not admit my illness until a few years back I am new to the bipolar world. I'm educating myself and learning ways to ease the symptoms and how to get through. I just started this blog as a new project to keep me motivated with my progress to wellness.

Thankyou for reading
Jenni bipolar butterfly