Hi everyone, I recently deleted all my friends off of facebook. It was a massive bold move on my part to help stabilize my emotions. I have been wanting to get "off" of facebook as if it were a drug, for a long time. I would try to take fasts and deactivate my account, sign out but could get right back on with a click of a button. First off I didn't delete friends because of them....no I have pretty nice and normal people in my life, it was for me. My moods have been grey and I have found myself becoming short and irritated. I control it real well but I hate the feeling. I have been drained. Facebook for the most part drains me emotionally. I feel like even when I'm not on it I have the words, the actions the pictures all floating around me as I go about my day. I do not need to know everything and on facebook you pretty much do. I;ve also had a lot of fun on facebook. It is fun and can be fun but for someone extreme such as myself it can go too far. I have work to do and a family to take care of. I have to be held accountable and with facebook there is no accountability, I can be on there all day and all night. But something else will suffer. Like laundry. Say you have laundry and a kitchen to clean up and you have facebook to look up that is full of beautiful pictures, funny quotes and updates from friends. Well I would almost always chose facebook first.
There is this thing called sensory overload and alot of people who have bipolar experience this. I know that I certainly do. Sometimes its better than other times. Like right now I want to live in a 1.8 gallon fishbowl as apposed to a 10 gallon or say even the ocean. I can not take it any more. I love order. I love simplicity. I have a complicated inner life called bipolar and to have order outside brings a calm to my insides. I am not your average Joe.
I want to write this to vent and tell that this is something I am experiencing and that its ok to step back from things, even if they are good things or simple things. I took a bold step toward my mental health. I deleted facebook. Life before facebook may have been lonelier or boring but it was healthy. I got all my work done, meals cooked and I had energy to give my family. I have spread myself too thin. I have been living in a 10 gallon tank when I really do best and am blessed in a 1 gallon tank.
Bipolar <3 Butterfly
There is this thing called sensory overload and alot of people who have bipolar experience this. I know that I certainly do. Sometimes its better than other times. Like right now I want to live in a 1.8 gallon fishbowl as apposed to a 10 gallon or say even the ocean. I can not take it any more. I love order. I love simplicity. I have a complicated inner life called bipolar and to have order outside brings a calm to my insides. I am not your average Joe.
I want to write this to vent and tell that this is something I am experiencing and that its ok to step back from things, even if they are good things or simple things. I took a bold step toward my mental health. I deleted facebook. Life before facebook may have been lonelier or boring but it was healthy. I got all my work done, meals cooked and I had energy to give my family. I have spread myself too thin. I have been living in a 10 gallon tank when I really do best and am blessed in a 1 gallon tank.
Bipolar <3 Butterfly
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